Moving again. It’s so hard when you get used to a place and then suddenly you learn that in a month, maybe less, you are moving to a different place. Everything was all set here. I was to be a Jpia officer. I planned on running as class president again. I had connections. I finally felt at home. In just a moment all this was gone. I’m gonna be the new kid again. No friends. Unfamiliar with the place. I know it might seem like self pity but my point is just that its hard for me too. I feel so disregarded though I know they have problems but I don’t know. its just that my schooling was not a factor in the decision. Sure yeah, it’s a great school. But I was finally used to Bataan. Now I have to start over again, in Pampanga. *sigh* Accept and move on is all I can do. tsk.
Life is so friggin complicated. So many things you need to keep hidden. So many restrictions. SO MUCH DRAMA. I wish that someday I could just sit down and reveal everything. But HOW? How can I when distrust is always in the air. It’s not like I’m doing anything bad. Falling in love isn’t a sin, right? It’s not like I’m gonna run off anyday soon. They should know me enough to know I wasn’t raised that way. In fact they should understand me because they raised me with so much love in the atmosphere that I ought to know when its REAL, right? RIGHT? I know that there’s a right time for everything. But what if the right time’s now? I know me. Its not like its gonna be the “distraction” they think it to be. It’s just like me having another brother. Another person to look after and love. An add-on family member. How would that be a distraction? I guess it would take more effort. But COME ON. It’s LOVE. LOVE is a GREAT thing. They, of all people, should know that. *sigh* Its so simple, really. Its love. It comes naturally. Its our nature. Why does it have to be so complicated?
I have noticed that the usual quote, status or statement has something to do with being “in love”. Many people use this phrase carelessly everyday. Now, there’s nothing wrong with being “in love”. However, just like a biker needing to know how to ride bikes, shouldn’t we all know what the TRUE meaning of “in love” is before we use it?
=John 3:16= For God so loved the world that he gave us his only begotten son, that whomsoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
This verse is probably the most used verse in the whole bible. The one that is most used as a memory verse. Of course, who doesn’t know this verse. Sure, many people can recite this verse from the top of their heads. But do we truly know what the verse says? Simple. It says that God is “in love”. And even better, with us.
Us. Humanity. Well known sinners. We were and still are not worthy of God’s love. We have hurt and failed him so many times. And yet, what does he do? HE gives us his only son. To die, and save us. Now, this is what the true meaning of being “in love” is.
TRUE LOVE. what is this we speak of. ‘oh I love my boyfie sooo much, I’d die for him’. Oh, so you love him so much? Well then, I’m sure you’d give all your money just so he could go on with his addiction to drugs. Yes? NO? I thought so. BUT. Had you felt the love, the LIMITLESS, UNCONDITIONAL and TRUE love that the Lord felt for us? you’d do all that, and more. Now that is what true love is. And to elaborate….
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-7)
So before saying that you love someone, think about it. Do you REALLY love him? Why not just love HIM? Much better, yes?
Today was the Glory Encounter for the CSB youth and it was MOST DEFINITELY a success! I started the day with a bad mood and a heavy feeling in my heart. I had tampo, anger, feelings of insecurities, and jealousy in my heart, thus keeping me from enjoying myself and surrendering my all. As the sessions finished, one by one, they seemed to call out to me to lose all I was thinking about. And finally, by the end of the day, every bad feeling I felt and was thinking about, just LEFT. ALL GLORY TO GOD! <3 today I forgave, and forgot my loneliness, feelings of rejection, and tampos. It feels so light. I FEEL SO FREE. *hence the title*